Re: Top goal for 2004

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Others. None of these have anything to do with the advent of a new year; these are just goals that I pursue.

• To better understand the universe. To make it better.

• I will delve into the nature of time. This sounds like the study of a grand and universal thing, and it may be, but it is a very personal thing. I look to note how I sense time, how some moments seep into me and endure, how others seem to evaporate without a trace, how one moment bears and births another. Can you by will construct or find a good or perfect moment?

  That sounds cerebral but it is not an intellectual endeavor. I have had some success treating truth as something to be viscerally felt or known. That success leads me to look at time in the same way. I think that time is going to be a much more subtle thing to sense this way.

• To remove sarcasm from my word and thought. Sarcasm seems to have no good use. Even where it is appropriate to defend, to distance; even where my anger and pain might seek to create like companions in another person; in all these sincere words or silence would serve better.

• As Friends do, I am attempting to stop using honorifics and titles. I had intentionally developed the habit of using titles to be less rude than most Americans(USA) are. I thought to honor people more. I have come to realize that this doesn't work for me. I would be more warm toward people; I didn't and don't need to be more formal.

Be well.