you've implied it. On the one hand you claim to have enjoyed the contest while it was running, while you claim to have wasted your time, and have as much as said you wish you hadn't bothered. If I'm reading too much into what you've written, please ignore me.
The impression you have been giving everyone is that you think you wasted your time because you didn't find the magic I-IX formula. I don't think anyone understands where you're coming from.
I personally think the contest was biased against Ton. He'd discovered/invented the formula for another contest, and his solution was published. If that contest hadn't been run, he'd won by another three strokes!
Imagine someone got beaten by Roger Federer 6-0 6-0 6-0.
Instead of saying "Well played Roger" or "You've got a great
backhand" or "You were just too good for me today", the loser
opened with "I started out at a distinct disadvantage from the start
because you have a better quality tennis racquet"
followed by "those two bad line calls I received in the third game
left a very bad taste in my mouth" and finished with "I wish I
hadn't bothered with this contest at all".
To me, this long thread is mostly about simple human manners,
respect and sportsmanship.
You got beat 6-0 6-0 6-0 by Ton yet have shown him no respect,
instead focusing on the bad taste in your mouth and the distinct
disadvantages that you suffered.
Ton has a rare gift evident from studying the post mortem:
his opening 129 was made "before starting to think", he uncovered
the surreal construct $$$_=$_ days before anyone else,
and he found the *_=eval trick (which noone else found)
in, wait for it, one minute and twenty seconds!
You would go up in my estimation if you stopped focusing
on your own feelings for a moment and instead congratulated
Ton on a well-played game and for inventing
the magic formula in the first place.