||Aug 14, 2001 at 02:20 UTC
||Aug 24, 2005 at 10:30 UTC
(8 years ago)
|Location:||bay area, california|
Jun 19, 2013 at 22:55 GMT+8
It's completely impossible to move on from the one girl born on the same
day of the same year at the same time as you, on the vernal equinox, on
the transition of the age of picses to the age of aquarius, who's hot as
hell, exactly completely perfect for you in all her shortcomings, who
you met through total bizare wierd fate who you technically grew up with
who steals you away from the only positive relationship you had to
create a child with you, ruin all your friendships, who gets you fired
from two jobs, who has you falsely arrested, who raises a beautiful baby
boy with you who we both created out of love and then one day just takes
him away and says shes moving to new mexico only to stay in the bay area
and who tells you that she's getting MARRIED to the new guy who you son
thinks is REALLY YOU IN THE FIRST PLACE on your *OWN BIRTHDAY* and
then goes ahead and starts hiding his very name, his very whereabouts, his entire
existance just as if you had never been born, just as if you had never exist, just as
if you had never deserved to have ever graced her with your presence - enough
so that she just pulls the most cruelest meanest thing anyone could have ever done to a
person in the history of love, romance, courtship, anything. you name it.
Times are a changin. This is ULTIMATE SUFFERING and for *what*? Just
sticks and stones? Is my entire existance worth what you're waking up to
every day? Is what I go to sleep at night feeling worth what you wake up knowing?
How could I deserve this?
How could anyone?
i'm a catalyst, so abuse with discretion or you'll be sorry.
a piece of advice: dont fear the reaper.
i usually have something to say to everyone, so get used to it.
i have a much better homenodepage at http://dreamscape.org, also available
punch and pie.
See http://dreamscape.org/code/ aand http://dreamscape.org/code/alt
the following propoganda is available at that homenodepage:
# eco run this to get this new codepack
# run-tests cheap ass monitoring: run test.* and email if problem
# test.processes cheap ass monitoring: if some procs running ok/not ok
# test.diskspace cheap ass monitoring: if disks full ok/not ok
# test.top cheap ass monitoring: if mem from top ok/not ok
# test.load cheap ass monitoring: if load ok/not ok
# test.web cheap ass monitoring: ok/not ok webpage download
# ping_gw determines default route from route -n, then pings
# pack tool to pack a directory into archive and then crypt
# noansi pipe to strip ansi characters (think ls --color)
# mailagent-rulesfile my old mailagent .rules before i used spamassassin
# decrypt cheap ass script to manage pgp decryption
# crypt cheap ass script to manage pgp encryption
# check_dynamicdns if two ns lookups dont match, do something about it
# aim-reader feed this aim logs, get paragraphs of what you said
# explaining.screen details on how to use screen for the clueless
# debian.rc some aliases i used with debian
# autonuts-mutella.tgz autonuts 3.0 -- automates mutella with perl (NEW)
# autonuts-noexpect.tgz autonuts 2.9 -- automates gnut with perl only
# autonuts-10m.tgz autonuts 2.7 -- automates gnut with perl and expect
# room.tgz a private room, connectable via telnet from localhost
# cider.tgz everything you see here
# autonuts autonuts -- commandline gnuntella automaters
# docroot_auto_webalizer multiple-line entry searching idea
# edit opens editor on script binary in your path, eg: edit edit
# i simple interactive command framework
# after pipe, print all text on line after given regexp
# and pipe, print all text and append string after line
# before pipe, print all text on line before given regexp
# between pipe, print text between regexp1 and regexp2
# exclude pipe, print any line not matching regexp
# match pipe, print any line matching regexp
# matchand pipe, print any line matching regexp w/and
# matchbefore pipe, print any line matching regexp w/before
# maul throw every goddamn signal in the book at a process
# ns6 some old ass onetime hack i used with broken mozilla
# onall run on every of, usage: onall tgz tar xvzf
# opt run imagemagick convert on and print size diff
# kitty ghettoly kill process attached to tty
# ciderlib library of some useful subroutines used elsewhere
# bashrc.ppc the bashrc i used on the orig. cider ppc debian dist
# bashrc.x86 the bashrc i currently use on my athlon
# booth meant to suppliment soapbox command for playback
# cl_bootleg craigslist client, version 0.8
# cl_browse craigslist client, version 0.9 (this ver browses nice)
# cl_cheaprent craigslist client, version 0.9 CR (finds cheap rent)
# codeshowcgi the code for this web page right justified
# cows.tar my trusty cow alarm clock, looped cow + sleep rand(2)
# confuse_code_red use apache's redirect to frustrate worms
# cred_logremove removes code red from apache logfiles
# dirlist_cgi suitable for index display w/longfiles
# e2 everything2 client / search version 1.0
# e2ify converts  magic shorthand to e2 softlinks in files.
# embedocam.tar embedocam version 0.9 (v4l motion captue displaytools)
# embedocam expanded view of embedocam
# fragpsy makes obfuscated psychological poetry, feed mail|files
# grabkernel automation script to grab/patch/config/build kernel
# grabssh automation script to grab/config/build ssh
# green text pipe, changes color to random greens per char.
# red text pipe, changes color to random reds per char.
# kget used to retrieve/rsync files from fixed ssh2 host.
# kopy used to store/rsync files to fixed ssh2 host.
# kcmd used to execute command on fixed ssh2 host.
# index.cgi the viewer for this tarball, get the tarball for src
# lib directory containing cider's infrequently used modules
# lister.tar awesome image lister, w/thumbnail generator, +comments
# lister expanded view of lister
# js jumpstart code i wrote for excite@home
# lj quickly fork text browser to read someones livejournal
# ljfragpsy make odd obfu-poetry on someones livejournal
# makeprizes small script to make the prizes.tgz tar bundle.
# muttrc a good colorized muttrc, hacked, tweaked, mine.
# new tool to use when creating new files, copies headers
# netinit various network initialization commands i use
# note use it to store or display quick oneline notes
# nwsource_bootleg nwsource client, version 0.7
# pic script to record lots of images from usb 3com homeconnect
# pm a quick and dirty generic hacked frontend to perlmonks
# powerball performs powerball picked number statistical analysis
# pull pull out perl regex from str, pipeline!
# pull2 pull out 2 perl regexes from str, seperated by space
# pup keeps a tcpdump running at your house, rotates logname
# purple text pipe, changes every letter to random purple shade
# rrfastest elections fastest host from roundrobin DNS replies
# random returns random file from given file list
# randomln returns back a random line from file
# scoring a cheap scoring mechanism and test
# search searches google using lynx from cmdline
# sf sourceforge cvs tool, usg: sf project (login|co -s)
# sol shit outta luck - my perl aim client;) (kludged hack)
# single_floppy_perl mini-howto, ramdisk unix
# squeeze trims per line leading whitespace
# soapbox chronologically stored journal entry creation tool
# total totals sum of ^(\d) for each line
# thescore sortof scores this script pack
# trackgrow can track progress of growing file, estimates speed
# upgrade can be used to easily hack automating upgrading debian
# urlview usg: urlview pictureurl, downloads, views cache
# unpack switch to unpack various unix filetypes
# usefastest elections fastest RR DNS host, caches lookup in hosts
# words shows unique words in a file (the vocabulary used)
# waitforend wait for named process to exit, then itself exits
# ws.1 spawn my first workspace (lay out your geometry)
# ws.2 spawn my second workspace (lay out your geometry)
# weblogdisplay a really huge ghetto unix command i use for logviewing
# xinitrc my xinitrc
# yewmail builds grepmail command search pipeline
# zipswap script to aid swaping disks and making new fs's
# zipwatch watches avail spc. w/zipdisk,armageddons via wall cmd
# zipbackup_old a ghetto old shell script used with zipbackup
# a product of....
# d r e a m s c a p e c r e a t i o n s . . .. .
# | 'I must Create a System, or be enslav'd by another Man's;
# : I will not Reason and Compare: my business is to Create.' _
# : -william blake __| |___ ___
# : / _` / __|/ __|
# : | (_| \__ \ (__
# : \__,_|___/\___|
# . ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^
i would do almost anything for a lifetime subscription to the perl journal,
also, i would be more then happy to write technical columns or give speeches
or presentations. looking to be further published, especially as the above
list doubles in size. would strongly be interested in old copies of the TPJ.
my brother just joined the air force, he ships off on the 13th of september.
i am gonna wish my best for you eric, stay safe bro
I just want to invent, I will support what I invent, and I'll
integrate and fix what you've got with it.
I program perl. I am a good sysadmin and engineer, I'm a realist, I
like research projects and lab work, I use enlightenment!
I can write automation scripts and engines, I can write process
interaction and validation and verification tools, I can parse any
configuration file with builtin embedded functional shorthands, i
know layering really good. Heck I'm sharp and smart! Look at all
the cheap hacks that I've written, most of these crazy ideas happened
in less than five minutes.
I want to succeed. I know how to listen. I act on good advice, I
need a chance. I bring change.
I will work for bandwidth;
beer; and urban ninja unix development;
Steven Loren Fountain